"The real me"

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hi! im "Felisse Erika L. Macaso"..
I know that lotsa people say that im unpredictable, especially my dear friends.(you know hu u r..haha..) Some say im moody, maarte, etc. bla bla! wOohh. okae. iL b serious.. this post will tell you "the real me"... so u wont say stuffs dat arent true bout me.
for those pips hu r interested; thank you..
nd those hu arent interested; i dont care.. just leave.
Well, People hu dnt know me dat much says that their first impression on me was a perky person, cause they always see me smile or laugh. See how looks can be decieving. But, ill tell you the truth not all those smiles && laughters were true.. I pretend so no one can see that inside im torn and broken, all they can see is a happy teenage girl. I know that its not good to pretend that ur ok even though ur not. but it helps me. indeed. I do this bcoz i dnt want them to feel bad on me. *sigh* im very emotional. Sometimes sensitive.. i love helping my friends in their hitches and oh they also call me "elf".. my dear friend "polo" gave me that nickname.. js lov it. (thank you pillow). I <33 music its d only thng dat relaxes me when im bcoming Emo.. duh. im not a choosy person, certified weird. hihi. i admit that im so lazy and careless. haha..
hmm. i hate pipz hu put others down jst bcoz that person wont fit. Person hu criticize others and liars.. screw you!.. You shouldnt do that js bcoz ur insecure..remember dat no one is perfect in this world.. haiii. im love animals.. God fearing person too. Sometimes i have low self-esteem dunno y.. waaa. im tired na.. ^^
i guess dis is d end. if gs2 nio pa aq mkilala.. dnt hesitate to make frenz wid me. i dont bite naman..hehe.. tnx 4 ur tym.. mwuah.
- - - - - - - - - - - -- -- - - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - -- - - - - -- - - - You think she’s happy. Yet her smile is so worn out She wears a fake one instead She hides her world Of sorrow and self-destruction Behind this mask and act Because each and every dayIs an endless struggle for perfection Filled with pain and agony She’s so lost and torn up She’s forgotten her reason for living And then she realises Life is so messed up and unjust Its not even worth it. She always tries her best To fit in and please But it was never good enough. She feels like a failure Like a worthless pathetic good-for-nothing She loathes herself In every way possible Believing she deserves nothing But pain and misery And she feels so dead inside She longs to see the blood Drip her off her wrist To finally feel alive Each and every memory Is inscribed in her scars She’s now broken Left alone in the darkNever to be foundAs she sits in the corner With no sign of life As the tears flood her faceThoughts run through her mind Broken heart aches and turns As blood flows off her wrist She slowly slips awayFrom this world…..